Love and magic
Reading each word, each phrase, each one slowly with
reflection. What’s left out?
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💕 Love is a feeling, where everything is right – open hearts and minds and
communication and synchronicity and commitment and seeing all the beauty and hope and
fragility of one another and caring for each other (caring more about the other
than self) and the tenderness and discovery and sex and romance and sensuality
and acceptance and clear, open communication and depending on one another and
softness around one another and around the love and around this life …
💕 Magic – the love is ramped up, intensified (Sometimes talking of love for
hours and hours makes sense – what else is there?), kissing caressing making
love for hours and hours, intoxicated with one another, pretty much completely
in synch, taking the utmost care of one another, it’s the greatest thing …
💕 How? Surrender, pay attention to one another, look for all the magic and
beauty in one another, believe that magic is real and possible, put selves into
magical places and activities, magical music, accept times of less magic,
wide-open communication …
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Talking with a little 5 year old mermaid named Beatrice, who asked, "Do you have kissy love in your heart?" "Oh yes!"
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Getting ready to decorate Jean’s and my Christmas
tree I got out my small collection of San Francisco Christmas ornaments.
Opening the box/the Christmas season triggered a flood of emotion and I cried
as I did in the first months after Leslie passed. It’s a hard, consuming crying
that goes on and on and leaves me exhausted and sore all through my body. Jean
helped me through part of it and left me alone at a good time.
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| Sunset from the deck |
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One of the decorations we put on the tree is a Star
of David (for Jean’s husband, David, who was Jewish). Jean wondered aloud about
putting a Jewish symbol on a Christian symbol. I quoted from John 14: In my Father’s house are many rooms…
Later these lyrics came through the speakers: In my
Father’s house are many rooms.
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I care
about:
Being a good person.
Feeling good given/within whatever circumstances.
Loving you, Jean; being loved cared about.
Loving David.
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| In Vancouver |
How you’re doing.
Being close/connected/making you happy.
Being beautiful – being beautiful for you.
Just being
with you.
I don’t know how to say this, but I care about your
vision, your expression, your art (not only what you produce). I’m digging your
wisdom, too.
Experiencing nature/natural beauty.
Having beautiful, loving
sex – pleasing you sexually – exploring one another’s sexuality.
Suffering in the world.
Justice.
John.
Friends and men in bible study group.
Who wins the election.
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| La Honda - before a magic night |
People being nice to one another, especially parents
being nice to children.
Growing, becoming, reaching toward my potential.
Being healthy.
Having or having had meaning – as in a life pattern.
Getting high, especially with you.
Being strong.
Having peak experiences.
Having enough money.
Being respected by people I respect.
Looking good.
Low stress, no conflict.
Being around kind people.
Living life effortlessly.
Baking and things like that – I care but not all that
much about these things.
I don’t
care about:
What we eat, when we eat, where we eat.
Where, when, how we go, except that want to go with
you.
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| Under the same sky, the same moon |
Where we sit, when we go to sleep/awaken.
What I wear, except that I want to look good for you.
Manifesting much of anything other than decency and
safety (Haha – actually, I want to manifest cool).
Who wins the football game.
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In November
Falling in love in these days/this age takes courage.
One will pass, one will grieve (though surely not as long, nor as terribly as
before). Eyes wide open.
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Political/cultural
comment
We came so close, and then we lost it. The reasons are
complex, I guess. Someone else can figure it all out.
My friend, Janet said, ”…everything we worked so hard for…” And for so long. Ah, what a
beautiful vision we had.
I think we may be on the threshold of a time of
tribulation. I have no idea what form(s) it might take.
What to do
after Trump election? (Answers
evolving)
Live our normal lives, working on love and acceptance
and meaning and growth… manifest these things.
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| Indian Path |
Now, more than ever, be a living mudra (symbolic
gesture) of the potentials in life. Lift up (with energy, with money) positive
forces, in my case World One Radio (http://worldoneradio.org/), my son’s high school, hospice – especially the
Presbyterian hospice in Dallas, Atrium Obscurum, other entities. Be kind to others, friends and
strangers.
I need to remember that long-ago boddhisatva vow: to
liberate all sentient beings. It ain’t easy lol. I’m not done with myself.
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Lay it all on the line at the right time. No need for
fear… we’ve all faced at least this much before.
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And the bodies move and we sweat
And we have our being
Van Morrison, Daring Night
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Breathless after reading this.
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