Our “endless summer” started in May 2016, though we didn’t name it
until May 2017.
Current posts are at ckjournal.com. Blogspot has had difficulties, so I switched to my own domain. All posts prior to this (June 2017) are still here at Blogspot.
Current posts are at ckjournal.com. Blogspot has had difficulties, so I switched to my own domain. All posts prior to this (June 2017) are still here at Blogspot.
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| A small section of a very big sky! |
…into Wyoming, highway up and down and around in rolling high arid
steppe – lots of sage, scattered livestock, a few herds of
antelope, into a fertile river valley with green fields, herds of livestock,
the majestic mountains in the near distance, the Snowy Range coming into view,
coming closer to Centennial, where Jean came deeper into herself.
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| Jean's work, 1970s |
What does it mean to be with a woman like you – who opens me to my
tears – who opens me to deep awe and joy. Driving across the Wyoming high
country, across the BIG SKY country feeling as if we’d taken something
psychedelic – so high and so good. “It’s good to have been high before, because
now we know what’s happening now.”
The dream is reality.
Willows!
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| In the Snowy Range |
You told me I help open places in you – as you help open places in
me.
That song you sang – “Wy-Wy-WY-oming.”
We stayed with Helen in Golden and with Kenny and Diane in
Silverthorne. Good shopping trip with Kenny. Wonderful hospitality from nice people. Colorado and into Wyoming
after a stop at Cataract Lake.
Centennial, Wyoming. Population 270. Jean called the woman who
bought her house 40 years ago to see if we could come by and walk past the
house to the river. The woman told Jean that she was out of town, but the back
door was unlocked, so we could just come on in. And we did. And we walked the
30-40 feet from the back door to the river running fast (we heard a big fish
break water). Standing there in the cold rain in this place of tremendous
growth for Jean.
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| In the Snowy Range |
We spent the night at the Old Corral Hotel, Peet's coffee and fruit and yogurt for breakfast in our room.
The highway (opened yesterday) up out of Centennial into the Snowy
Mountains. I first saw these beautiful mountains about 1963 off in
the distance on the way to somewhere in Wyoming with my friend, Renn Fenton***.
I’ve seen them in the distance 5 or 6 times since; and now, driving into the
mountains through pine trees dusted with snow and a little snow on the ground,
now more, stopping the car down a smaller side road and getting out to be in
the snow surrounded by trees with the snow too deep to walk in. Driving up and
up with deep drifts on the side of the road and the snow coming down and at the
top of the pass the snow is coming down sideways, stinging our faces – Yes!
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| The Bighorns |
The endless arching of this endless summer from Berkeley
to Mendocino to Dallas to Santa Cruz to San Francisco to Vancouver to the
golden afternoon of Big Sur to Marcia’s house to Indian Rock to The Temple to
Flagging to the Edge of the World, to Yosemite (walking with faeries in the
forest) to the beach the seashore the waterfront to La Honda to Esalen(!) to
massage class to New York to Spain to our beautiful life in Berkeley to
Colorado into Wyoming into the place where Jean became so much and arching
across the beautiful Snowy Range! This is
the train.
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| At the beginning of the Endless Summer - Mendocino beach |
Driving out of the Snowy Range it was a short drive
to Saratoga, to visit the hot springs there. The Saratoga Hot Springs hotel was
overpriced and the restaurant mediocre, but we had a great time along the river
and in the room. (More later on the municipal hot springs – a much better
option than the “resort.”)
From Saratoga, we drove north - first to Medicine Bow for breakfast with bikers (and not 50 year old divorced guy "bikers" with do-rags) - and onward to the Sheridan area to
visit Jean’s friends, Katie and Hal for a few days. We hung out on their ranch,
then drove up into the hills, parked, and walked along a dirt road lined with
lupines. Hal forged ahead with the dogs (Dan and Marty) and Katie and Jean
walked through the lupines and I wandered along in my own world. Lunch was at a
café in Bighorn. After lunch we went to a “roping” – a cowboy Memorial Day get-together
and a birthday party and so there we were, standing along the corral fence with
the “headers” and “heelers” roping the steers and the other people sitting on
their horses and a few along the fence.
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| Sheridan roping |
And THEN, it was time for the “boil” – a huge pot of
boiling seasoned water, with potatoes, sausage, corn, and shrimp – plus bread
and slaw and macaroni salad and watermelon and rhubarb (harvested yesterday)
pie and coconut cream pie and a humongous tub of ice cream and nice people –
though most are probably farther to the right than I am to the left.
A great Memorial Day.
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| At the "boil" after roping Memorial Day 2017 |
From Sheridan we headed south to Thermopolis for a
short time in their municipal hot springs, then on to Lander (home of the
National Outdoor Leadership School – NOLS). Good times and good food in this
pretty Wyoming town.
We drove the few miles from Lander to Sinks Canyon
where we camped in a state park. This was Jean’s first night in a tent in 40
years. Very windy and rained for awhile – a great night.
(“Grief is the final act of love, and recovery from
it is the necessary betrayal on which the future depends. There is only this
one life, and we are the ones who are here to live it.” From NYT review of
Option B: Facing Adversity, Building Resilience, and Finding Joy by Sheryl
Sandberg and Adam Grant.)
We talk of our spouses and the terrible grief. Driving up the highway across the Wyoming steppe and through the mountains, singing Grateful Dead and Beatles songs together - Here Comes the Sun! Such an emotional trip. Tears just beneath the surface... Attics of My Life - not about a person as much as self... attics = past - I laughed with delight.
We talk of our spouses and the terrible grief. Driving up the highway across the Wyoming steppe and through the mountains, singing Grateful Dead and Beatles songs together - Here Comes the Sun! Such an emotional trip. Tears just beneath the surface... Attics of My Life - not about a person as much as self... attics = past - I laughed with delight.
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| In the tent |
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| Vedauwoo campsite |
Camping with Jean was great. We were comfortable in our warm sleeping bag and tent,
enjoyed our camping food, and had good times hiking around and watching
sunsets.
From the Vedauwoos we drove to Fort Collins to spend
the night, but it was too cityish, so we drove into the mountains and rented a
cabin along the Fall River in Estes Park. This was a great move – clean
mountain air, rushing river, and… a bear walked by less than 20 yards from
Jean!!! This happened a day after we talked about our spirit animals (mountain
lion for me; bear for Jean)!
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| Sunset Vedauwoo |
Jean and Helen were talking about a car we saw with a
bumper sticker – Women for Trump. Jean said, “Don’t they realize their bodies
are sacred.”
Denver airport and flying from one paradise (Wyoming/Colorado) to another (Berkeley/Bay Area).
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| Bear outside our cabin. Photo by Karen |
*** Renn Fenton and I lived together in a cabin in
Estes Park and climbed in Estes and the Needles in South Dakota. While Jean and
I were traveling in Wyoming and Colorado, I told her a little about Renn. When
we got home I googled him. I discovered that he died in 2007. Here
is something from an internet forum: “I am a
travel nurse who has taken care of Renn while he was in the hospital. I wanted
all of you to know that I have felt privileged to be one who got to spend time
caring for Renn during his last days. It was clear to me the first time I laid
eyes on Renn that he was quite a character - when I googled him, I found this
site and saw a comment that made me want to respond. I was actually able to
"break through" with Renn and get him to talk back to me and say my
name. I will forever remember his vivid blue eyes and "cat that got the
canary" smile. I just wanted all of his friends to know that there are
several of his nurses who have appreciated Renn for being the kind of person
who makes this world interesting and feel honored to have cared for your friend.”
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| Renn's country - Jean's country - my country |
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